so what are you going to do now?

being home has been such a blessing. it has been a time of rest, relaxation, and getting back to a healthy place physically and emotionally.  i have had to fight myself day after day to allow this to happen, but most days are a success. it has been a time of such extreme transitions, and i have had to learn to let go of a lot of things. i have learned alot about myself and the woman that God is molding me into. but everywhere i go i am asked, so what are you going to do now? i hate that question even more than i did during the days leading up to graduation. i feel like i have even less of an idea now.

so it brings me to a place of thinking about where i want to be, and where i think God is taking me.

i want answers.

i want a booming voice.

i want God to make it beyond clear.

but he doesn’t. and i trust. i guess it just is that simple. when i think about what i would love post.grad life to look like, i think of alot of things.

i would love to have a job that i love, not a job that is permanent or a career, just something that i love. for now. something that i am good at, and something that excites me. i think i know what that is, i just need to get it. i would love a home. i dont know that i have ever except for a couple of months had that with roommates. it was a place to live, but it was not a home. i would love a home. a place that i look forward to going, a place of encouragement and prayer. i could use that i think. i would love to be in a place where i am close to my closest friends. this long distance thing is getting real old real fast. i would love to be close to my love. plain and simple. its been a month and a half, and i am not a fan of that.

i dont want to feel like i am waiting for life to start. i want to enjoy this pre-post.grad-life. i feel like my heart is in a place that is so thirsty for what god has to show me. and he is meeting me there. he is teaching me so much, and i am so grateful for this precious time with him, with very few distractions. he’s breaking my heart, healing it, and rebreaking it again.

but i’m ready.

this is top of my list of crafties for this summer.

i think it is perfectly sweet and the right amount of nautical.

scratch that, there is no right amount of nautical. the more the merrier if you ask me.

find this amazing DIY here:

http://www.mintdesignblog.com/2010/02/succulentlove%E2%80%99s-diy-sweet-love-garden/

“because of who you are and who i am in you, you make all things new….”

so college is over.

4 years are done. and i cannot even being to process that.

i am home now and i now know that i am here for a reason. there is a healing journey that i know he wants to take me on, and i think i am finally ready.

ready to be made new.

i have started this time of processing through alot.

alot about the last 4 years, and alot about the next 4.

how ive gotten here, and who has helped along the way.

i am beyond blessed by people in my life, and I am so excited to start on this new journey with them by my side. it will be a journey of healing and change, but i know i am ready.

dream getaway.

i’m on summer “vacation” and yes it’s relaxing but i cannot stop thinking of these two dream vacation spots.

this spot in palm springs is so dreamy. and very doable.

dear best friends,

how do you feel about a weekend away here? there’s outdoor living rooms and i think we need a getaway.

if were talking dreamy please look at this amazing place.

it is definitely not doable but is such a dream. baked goods delivered to your personal front porch, an outdoor living room and fireplace, and wine tasting all day. i dont think it could get much better.

at least for now a girl can dream…right?

i cannot stop staring at these flowers. they are beyond perfect. i want them in my room. i want to carry them around everyday.

found at yespleaseblog.blopspot.com

from a barbie and ken’s wedding. no lies. an older couple who found love named barbie and ken.

i die. so in love with them.

on becoming a grown up.

this summer i am going to become a lady.

i am feeling inspired. so i have started to learn to cook and bake.

it’s about time.

I have a list of things to do this summer and this week i have started my 1st goal

1. learn to cook and bake
2. read read read -> books that i want to read
3. start on my list of crafts i want to attempt (ex: headbands, doily pillows etc.)
4. delete school work from my computer, sounds so freeing!
5. keep up on blogs that inspire me as well as make this a habit.

so this week i started on goal #1 and it has been so good.

i started on monday by making dinner for my family. i made a cold spinach and basil salad. it was spinach, basil, red onion, toasted pine nuts, goat cheese, grilled chicken, and balsamic vinegar.

call me fancy. go ahead, do it.

it was fabulous if i do say so myself.

today in honor of the winteresque weather i made turkey chili with black beans, red and orange peppers, onions and celery. again a success.

well it was a success after i conquered a major battle with some spilled oregano. it was a mess, but i won.

tomorrow after my list of errands i think i am going to try a recipe i found for chocolate chip cupcakes.

i found it here: bakeorbreak.com she is one of my new favorites and inspirations to start on my baking adventures.

it will be a journey to the land of sweets tomorrow and i will let you know how it goes…

i am so ready to be done with school and required writing and books. i am ready to be inspired and create and get back to me. i feel like school has sucked me dry and i am ready for more.

i have no idea where God is taking me or where i will be in 5 months. but i think i am ready. ready for something bigger.

it seems like the cool thing to do.

so apparently this is the cool thing to do. so i decided why not? i can try to be cool too. try to be creative and put my thoughts out to the worldwideweb.

so here i go….

journey with me.